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Friday, June 25, 2010

Blessingsss

Maybe you all didn't know that I missed my week to post here. :D I did wrote something on MS word, but I can't copy, paste here. Mann... I'm so lazy to retype it here again, and it prevented me from posting here. I was sharing about how God blessed me at my work.

Last month, my job had an opening for lead position in production. Everyone who interested can apply for the job. The thought of applying didn't come across my mind. I wasn't going to apply. But my supervisor encouraged me to apply, and he even explained me about the job. I told him, I will think about it and let him know later. I was feeling "arr nar" and I thought, it's didn't hurt to apply. It was a difficult decision for me because I don't wanna cross the senior. I was only working in Medical device company for 6 months with no prior experence. I wasn't sure until last minute to apply. I was thinking, I always prayed God to guide me in this work, help me to do well, and make me the best at what I do. I put my job in God's hand. I was like is this God's will?

So.. I ended up applying.....

Don't get too excited!! I didn't get the job! I was interview with panel of 6 peoples, and the feed back are very good. My supervisor said all of them were very impressed and they see potential in me. So, even though I didn't get the job, I have to go through leadership training. If I do well, I can get the job. For me, I don't really want that position. But I put everything in God's hand, and I'm happy with the result.

Thanks God! and thanks to everyone who prayed for me at the time of interview!

May God Bless you all...

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Trials and Tribulations

The reason I made the last post about sowing and reaping is because - just like everyone else - I face trials and tribulations from time to time, and mine is from home.

No matter how strong I'd try to make myself to be, my mother is my mother. She knows how to get to me and what hurts me the most. She knows what I'm vulnerable to, the sensitive topics, and how to speak to effectively cripple me, spiritually. It's like THE goal of her middle age life to get me out of church. She's not the easiest opponent to reckon with considering she used to preach when she was my age. Now she uses the bible against me. I'm normally tongue-tied, speechless, and defeated by her.

For one, she says, "Don't think I don't know what you're doing just because I'm not here. You go to this stupid church and waste all your time so you cannot get all A's for your classes. How can a University student be going out in the weekend, the whole day, when it's the only day you can study? Sometimes you even go to church 3-4 times a week. Don't lie! I've been to church. I know they have the prayer meeting, fellowship, bible study, whatever! You do it! You go all the way to Oakland spend all the money on gas and toll and even drive people around. Don't lie! Don't lie! I know what church is like! And you give all your money to church! Especially they're refugees!"

My first reaction is fury. Because it's not true! Well... not totally. Soon, the fury is turned on me. I was so angry at myself because I failed to glorify God. I feel like a ginormous failure! This is why:

True, most of the time, I went to church instead of studying. I would rather go to church if there is a revival, VBS, easter, christmas, new year, church cleanup, food fair, fundraising, camp, etc, than study for my exam or tests - most of the time. I see my spiritual investment to be way more profitable than carnal investment anyway! See, I give zero care to earthly rewards; I'm trying to build up my heavenly treasures! Of course, my Mom went berzerk when I childishly rebutted that they are all going to hell if they don't go to church. (By which I mean believing in Christ, etc.) It was like the best I could think to say at that moment. I am seriously not helping God's kingdom. Way to shine for God at my unbelieving household.

See, not caring for earthly rewards does not mean not studying or working hard in the world. I just realized it! In fact, it's working even harder than worldly people who seek worldy rewards!

See, even with the going-to-church-alot thing, I had time to study. I just had to work doubly hard compared to an unbelieving student. Maybe it means I have to sleep only 5 hours a day. Maybe it means I have to give up spending time on leisurely pleasures; Bye-bye Korean music. Instead, I always excuse myself for having completed an eventful day at church and reward myself at home by sleeping in or watching TV and sleeping some more.

It's like I can't even take a little suffering. I am so spoiled that I don't want to inconvenience myself a bit. Even if it is just once a week. I will NOT sleep less than 8 hrs. I will NOT eat bad food like a mere bun or quick to-go sandwich. I HAVE to cook a full meal with soup, vegetables, meat, and fruits, every meal. I just have to or I feel incomplete and cranky. These are just some examples of that many things I refuse to compromise. So I sow in these things, what do I reap?

What is my true desire? To glorify God. To live a godly life. So it just didn't make sense that I sow in indirect matters more than direct matters. Sure, sleep and eat are important but not THAT important when it comes to getting the work done.

I can definitely go to church as many times as God wants me to and still Ace my classes. Because I go to church for the living God who is just real! My problems are real and He sees it! He would have let me reap a hundred fold if I just had the faith to sow! If I have one more chance to go back to school, maybe for my CPA exam, I will fight a good fight of faith.

Meaning, I should sow not in my flesh! Why am I doing so? It just daunted on me so sharply when I was listening to Dr. Charles Stanley's sermon.

I'm not saying good sleep or good food is ungodly. I was trying to make a point. Listen to the sermon. God bless you.

PS: How fitting, bible verse of the day: “For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul?” (Mark 8:36)

The Principle of Sowing and Reaping











Monday, June 7, 2010

thoughts from visiting Kelly






Yesterday some of YAF members visited Kelly and I had a chance to meet Kelly's parents for the firstime after I have known her for 8 or 7 years! This made me realize that I have to develope deeper relationship with all the YAF members. I think we should start doing house visitation and get to know each other's family as I believe getting to know the family members is also part of developing deeper relationship.